Neha Parmar

Today I felt a déjà vu, there was this sound, which reminded me of you.... Hidden it has been deep  inside my core. Your Laughter is something I have always adored! How foolish of me to not have known, That's how inside me love has grown!

Each and every day, I try and keep my demons at bay, but as the night descends, & I feel the aching yearn, Slow and steady the demons return......! And in the dying light, I hear them whisper.... We are inside you, Are you trying to forger us dear? I put up my finest smile, As they entrap my soul in chain,  After all am a human, I have a reputation to Maintain!                               ~ Neha Parmar

I wonder which unknown world I have come, Where sky's covered with this flowery dome, Where the street looks like pure gold, A land perhaps where no one grows old, And the river as clear as crystal, It all seems to me like a riddle, Where life, they say is easy, But one without struggle makes me dizzy, Maybe that's the reason I feel lost, Cause hell is where I originally belong! ~ Neha Parmar

So many of us look up to the moon, Its in his nature to disappear soon, But the Stars, they are here to stay, And quietly listen to troubles of the day... Even on the darkest of night, They try and shine with all their might, For they know, all the crushed souls, Look up seeking their only ray of hope.... All they wish is to figure out soon, Why everyone's busy looking for the moon? ~ Neha Parmar

They say Girls Notice stupid small things, Yes we do! I do notice, When He tiptoed in my room late night, to check my temperature when I was sick.... The ways he still holds my hand while crossing road.... I noticed that water sparkle in his eyes, when someone talks about sending me to in -laws 😅 I notice his Proud face when u say "Mera beta he ye to"😊 I noticed when how he was dying inside everyday, fighting all the demons to protect his Daughter.. I noticed all the struggles my DAD goes through , I just don't say anything... I do Notice, I do notice how he beats around the bush, just to know which guy I am texting 😛 I do notice he talks up the guy I like to our parents... I do notice he burning inside to punish the people that cause me any harm.. I do notice he being protective, around my guy friends.. I do notice he not leaving the house or watching all those series or playing games with me in my worst of days.. I do notice how My BROTHER cares and ...

I used to hate him more than any thing in the world, why wouln't I?? He used to tear all my books up! He never used to let me watch TV!! He once convinced me that I was picked up from some gutter.(Dad actually had to show me the Birth certificate and all to prove I am their child :'D) He used to eat all my chocolates, Tease me in front of all my friends,tell everyone embarrassing stories about me, He used to add salt in my water bottle! He used to tie me up in chair and go out to play, He never accepted me as a part of his team, always giving me the task of fielding, even convinced me that batting is for losers! O_0 He practiced aiming airgun by keeping me as target :( Once a dog bit me, and he convinced me I was slowly turning into one..O_O But then he also,used to sign my remark note instead of dad. He also used to convince dad to let me go on tours. He also used to buy a new toy, whenever he had one. He used to help me learn all sorts of video games! eve...

"Who is the most important person in your life?" When someone asked this to me, frankly I was clueless, and like most of us would do, to give answer to that question I blankly said  "Parents". What moved me was what came next, the response was "IT'S YOU." This small incident got me thinking, and I never realized  it would change me so much. And then suddenly everything was clearer to me.I have seen so many people including myself, who value someone so much, that in the process you lose yourself, be it their parents, friends or partner. Its is now that I realize, the worst thing one can do is losing yourself in the process of valuing someone too much. Have we just for once stopped and wondered what would make us happy? or let me do this for my own happiness rather than for someone else. when in the time of need or when like most of us would say  "When you are BROKEN", remember the only person who can help you is "YOU",...